There is no logic to predicting which days will be bad or good for me. Some mornings, I wake up just knowing it is a crappy day. However, most days, I wake up with no clue how the day will turn out.

Yesterday, I woke up indifferent, got ready for worked, dropped my daughter at school and when I was less than a minute from work, the uncontrollable tears began. I continued to cry in parking lot then took time to recompose myself.  Once I thought I was ok, I proceeded to the office, suddenly, the tears started streaming down my face. Imagine the horror when I ran into a co-worker…oh no….no one is suppose to see me crying definitely not at work and there I was still crying uncontrollably. Eventually, I made it to my office and finally the tears stop and I proceeded my work day.

Today, was different, it was a better day, in fact I refer to it as a good day. Like yesterday, I woke up indifferent but managed to drive to work without crying, sang along to some songs on the radio, and maintained a decent demeanor for the rest of the day.

What makes some days better than others remains unclear. I wish I knew what sets me off some days and what keeps me calmer on other days. I am just relieved that today was better than yesterday.