Today was hard, a very rough day. Without much warning, I was in full blown grief. I wanted my David badly. I needed to be close to him. I cried and wished his cemetery was closer. If it was closer, I would have driven there since it was the closest I could be to him. The desire to go to the cemetery felt odd to me since it is a place I thought I would not want to visit anytime soon. And suddenly, it feels like where I need to be. I tried to comfort myself by looking at the picture of his tombstone, something that brought me extreme pain the first time I saw it.  Although I cried profusely as I looked at the picture today, I also felt a strange sense of closeness to David.

Rest in peace….whatever that means.