It has been almost two weeks since I returned to work and truly, it has been the right decision. I am so thankful for the support of many of the individuals at work. Returning to work has also revealed to me some of the awkwardness of my new reality especially when people see me for the first time.

Many offered their condolences and showed genuine interest in the well being of me and my daughters.  Others simply pretended like nothing happened at all and proceeded to having work related discussions. There is another group that have avoided me like a plague, they see me coming down the hallway and change directions or try to remain so focused on something like they never saw me.

I am most grateful to those that have asked about me or expressed their condolences regarding David’s passing. Many have gone way above what I can even imagine in the extent of the support they have offered.

The strangest are those that simply pretend like nothing happened. I find those situation to be the most peculiar but perhaps it speaks to the awkwardness of death. But death is something I now have to confront daily. Understandably, it is an undesired life change. If I had gone back to work after getting married or having a baby most of these people would have been fine to acknowledge that and offer their congratulatory messages.

As for those that have avoided me, if/when our paths cross will determine which of the other two categories they fall into.

Below is selfie of me and my older daughter on my first day back to work. I was determined to make sure I did not look crazy, I know David never let me leave the house looking crazy.