As the days pass, my older daughter especially is getting more emotional about the absence of her Dad.

One night after she watched the movie Brother Bear 2, I noticed she looked a bit emotional.  I asked what was wrong and she said nothing.  I pressed a little bit more and she said God will tell me.  I pleaded that she should share her thoughts with me. Finally she agreed and she said that “if you cannot change someone, you can change yourself”. Then she said she wants to be an angel so she can be with her Dad.

I was dumbfounded, that will teach me to make sure I sit with her and watch her movies. I told her that if she becomes an angel, she will no longer be with Mommy and her Sister. This brought tears as she said “I do not want to leave you and my Sister, I want Daddy to come back”. This brought more tears for both of us.

Later that night, my younger daughter was also missing her Dad, when she was getting ready for bed, she just kept saying “Daddy is back, Daddy is back”.

I understand the void they feel and it is certainly one I cannot fill. How I wish I could bring him back.

PS: Later, I read the plot of Brother bear two and I have a better understanding of the statement my older daughter made. In the movie, there was a male bear who wanted to turn into a human after reuniting with a human female from his childhood he grew fond of, however he could not change into a human and she decided to changed into a Bear.