Today, we felt a bit of Christmas magic.

As we drove through town, both my daughters eyes lit up as they admired the Christmas lights and decorations. The lights have been there since the beginning of the month and for some reason today, it brought a deeper sense of joy to them. My younger daughter said “I love the place, it is Christmas time. It makes me happy.”And my older daughter followed and said “This is what makes me happy about Christmas”.

Their comments immediately brought me some happiness considering all the sad moments we have been experiencing. My older daughter has been crying lately saying that nothing will make her happy about Christmas and that she will be sad on Christmas Day because all she wants is her Daddy. Equally saddening was my younger daughter standing next to Santa and whispering to me that she wants her Daddy for Christmas. She also told me previously that her Daddy will be her Christmas present for me.

I know there will be other sad moments as Christmas approaches but today as they expressed how the Christmas lights and decorations made them happy, I asked them to remember how they are feeling at this moment when they feel sad about Christmas. Not because it will ease the pain but simply because when we are feeling sad the despair seems so much and it hard to imagine that there are moments of happiness.

How I wish Christmas magic would bring David back.