Seriously, how am I suppose to live without you? How can I really live without you? You were everything for me. You balanced me, you were my go to person, bad day – David will fix it, silly question – David will answer it, frustrated – David will bear the brunt of it.

When you went on business trips, we used to joke about how I barely managed to hold things down for a few days without falling apart. Now how am I suppose to hold things together for years, decades?  It has been a month since you have been gone,  it has been horrid. How can I manage for a year?

Seriously, how do I live without you? I do not know how, I have spent ALL my adult life with you. Where do I go now? How do I move on?  How can you be gone forever? NO

This is not fair…..i feel broken. I am broken. I miss you. I need you.